Long long time!

have been a long time never sign in my blog!!
lazy blogging... =.='
wait ba! wil b update soon!!

waiting for DEC, den i can go to journey lu!!!
but opposite happy,sad that next year CNY i'm going to pass in NS!!!! !@#$%^&*()_ WTF!!!
but nvm,at least i'm stil wif her >>>>>>>>>> MIKA!!! ^^

Suddenly something appear in my mind!!!

seem now is 6.45AM, but i never sleep...
dunno y cant asleep, too hot? too boring to sleep?

CGD is a memory in my mind, suddenly think bout dat...
everything totally different, coz of myself...
i noe dat nothing gonna change for future...
I'm juz here to say thanks to u guys and oso sorry!!!

Going to leave TARC soon, leave mayb a good thing for u guys izit?!
I think so...
Guys, u all r good, sorry dat din appreciate our friendship, i apologize for dat!!
Anyway, all d best for u guys n take care...

Going back to kuantan later dy, but never sleep, hopefully i wont get in an accident lo... =.='
Life is such a beautiful thing, appreciate wat u own NOW for prevent regret in FUTURE!!!

深夜

现在已经深夜了，不知道为什么进入补了睡眠状况，是想多了吗？
只感觉心里很平静，头脑也很清醒，但是就睡不着。

有谁能陪我啊？
不知道啊！！！
算了，尝试睡觉吧！！
晚安咯！

是时候改变了！！

原来一直以来我都错了，错得很彻底！！
一直以来都是自己在一意孤行，不懂得理会别人的感受！！
现在才知道自己那么的自私，那么的骄傲！！
该死的，搞出了那么多事！！

我不要再像以前那样小孩了，对不起！！
伤了你们让你们生气让你们辛苦，我知道不会得到你们的原谅但我还是要跟你们说声对不起。
对不起！！

绝望

我真的绝望了，对于自己的功课一无所知，对于身边的人都感到很陌生。
看着自己的功课，我不知道我能怎么做，我总是心不在焉，为什么？
为什么日子那么难过？

我真的不想再这样颓废下去，但我做不到，心里总是有一些不该有的烦恼，笨蛋，为什么像那么多啊？
都已经过去了还想来做么呢？为什么要让自己那么辛苦呢？没必要吧！

都快18岁了，为什么还像小孩子啊？
唉。。。

我要快乐！！

我是怎么啦？！
怎么总是感觉心事重重的呢？
表情都只是苦瓜干似的。。
唉。。。
刚吃饱回家，一切都已经完了。
谢谢！！！
日子还是要走。。。
很漫长的路正在等我。。。

If i'm a bird..

How good if i'm a bird...
I can fly further, i can fly to everywhere that i like...
I want freedom...
I du1 get controlled by anything, any1...

Life is mine but y do i have to been controlled?!
Unfair for me...

But the problem is, no matter hw further i can fly, that's alway some block in front of me...
Sun blocking my eye, wind blowing me away, mayb get shooted by hunter ?! >.<
WTF?!

I wanna b stronger, cause i'm weak...
I wan super power, i wan to b d strongest in my life...
Whoever block my way den i can beat them down... FUCKED THEM UP!!!!!!! =.='

I'm in love, i wan i love wif easy, i dun1 make my JOUREY to the LOVE hard...
I wan make it easy... So, how u going to treat this love?!

People says that sleep is the way to walk further so i keep sleeping, but i;m not walking further at all!!!!!!!!! BULLSHIT!!!
People says that some1 who in love can be sweet, but y i can feel sour?bitter? but by mixing those taste i still can taste sweet!!

Love is so strange... Can make we sweet, but opposite oso can make us bitter and sour and mayb spicy... :p

Finally i get FREE!!!

Finally finish all d assignment n past up...
At least can relax for a moment...
Happy....But start boring...
Wat can i do?!

NExt week gonna mid term dy...
Haiz... y diploma life such messy?!

When only i can going back kuantan?!
i wan go back play,drink...
BOring wif life now but gonna study hard seem is diploma...
haiz... do my best ba...

0628

I have been watched GARY's concert...
This is his 1st concert & M'sia is the 1st station...
Wow... so nice...
His sound is so amazing...
I likes his sound...

The concert full of surprise...
Justin b the 1st special guest n he sing 男人KTV...
His sound nice til...

He oso got sing the song MY WAY...
Whole concert i oso waiting he sing MY WAY ny...
I love that song...

He done a succesful concert...
Hope can go to his concert again...
^^

Assignment!!

Assignment reli wil make ppl going crazy!!!

35drawing have to pass up this friday...
BUt BUT BUT,impossible i can done it...
I think 50% or more of the students can't even finish except those who draw everyday!!

HElp help hELP!!!
Who can help me draw?!
Going to crazy jor la!!!

BAd Morning!!!

Usually i should be in college now...
bcoz i tired n not sleep enough so i skip the class...
but,suddenly i hear CALABRIA by ENUR, WTF!!!!
Look at the screen, MARCUS...
He ask me never go college a?!
I said no...
But dunno y he & Mr WK so miss me...
Force i go... Tiu-ed up...

So now,post this blog den have to go college jor...
BAd BAD morning...
Can't have a nice sleep...
SWEAT =.="

Sigh!!!

i wan to sleep but i cant asleep...
haiz...
headache + cough + throat pain...

unlucky i've sick...
T.T

2molo stil need pass up my assignment,but damn worst work i done...
y???!!!!

look at other's work...
WOW!!!
So nice,but look at mine... SHIT!!!

I gonna give more effort in my work...
I can b better...
Isn't is?!

lazy LAZY lAzY

recently quite lazy to post blog...

even though a lots of thing wanna say but no such mood to write...

soon i wil blog more...

^^

Diploma?!

Diploma le.... so how?!
All going to seperate dy...
Dis is not d fucking thing dat i wan...

Y d fucking TARC so sohai?!
I oso dunno how to say bout dis college...

Darren said he had failed....
I'm damn sad to hear dat n i think all of us wil think so...
Nobody hope v going to dismiss gor going to seperate...

Some more damn fucking boring at when hear n noe dat v going to dismiss n seperate...
HAIZ........HAIZ..........HAIZ...........

wat v can do?!
ntg gonna change....
hope darren can get promote to diploma...

Finally...

Finally...

I've passed all my subject n i can get in DIPLOMA...
YEAH YEAH!!!

After nervous for whole month,finally i passed...
Thankss GOD!!!

I'm stil GD...
But different is I'm DGD but not CGD dy...
^^

I'm happy dat I'm stil D2...
Hope all my buddy dun give up...
All the best buddy...

Day b4 Diploma..

2molo den start study le,but timetable hvt release?!
WTF wif TARC o??
SO,how to go college?!

Feeling nervous?!happy?!
But 4 me,nothing...
No feeling at all...
WHY?!?!?!?!

Wat i can do now is WAIT lo...
Wait result release decide my future,DEAD or ALIVE...
I feeling dat I'm those who waiting DEAD...

AIksss...

Tiada lagi (MEMORIES AT REDANG)

sia sia sudah kita jalin cinta
bila hati selalu berbeda
sampai kapan lagi
ku harus menahan
rasa kecewa di dalam dada
seandainya kita masih bersatu
tak mungkinkan menyatu
walau masih ada sisa cinta
biarkan saja berakhir sampai di sini

tiada lagi yang ku harapkan
tiada lagi yang ku impikan
biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu
tiada lagi kata cintaku
takkan lagi ku bersama mu
biar ku simpan semua kenanganku bersama mu

After REDANG!!!

I've back from redang dy lu...
Redang bring me many different feels...
I prefer i'm living on a island dat can bring me a lots of FUN...
I reli have fun at thr...

I ride bus from KL(PWTC) - Kuala Terengganu(Hentian Kuala Terengganu)...
Dis trip on bus used from 10pm-5am...
Damn long time o...
I ride konsortium bus go thr...
The bus got 7 gear...
Wow,i reli hope can drive a car wif 7 gear,dunno how is the feeling...
I think is SYIOK!!! wil damn fast... Hehe...

When v 1st reach,v notice a Mc Donald at the side,but close... >.<
Business time juz 9am-2am ny...
NOt 24hour??

After dat v keep waiting 4 van n boat to get to redang island...
When v all reach,damn happy damn excited to look at d sea n the beach...
So clear,v can jz look into the sand n v can c a lots of fish...

V been manage for 7 persons in a charlet...
Luckily enough bed to sleep... ^^
After dat v wait til 2pm 4 our snorkeling...
From dis i saw lots of fishes too...
NOt bad feeling...

1st night & the 2nd night i oso clubbing wif my fren...
Outdoor club,wow!!! 1st time c dat...
All beach boy look,juz wear short pant den can drink n dance dy...
Nonit colar cloth nonit long pant nonit sport shoe...
Hehe.. juz short pant without wearing cloth n shoe...
But d 1st nite i'm stil wearing my cloth la,feel pai seh if without cloth... HUHU!!!

d next day v snorkeling again n v played banana boat...
Haha,Mr Wai Keong is d 1st who fall from d boat n lastly made whole boat TERBALIK...
When v all drop into d sea i can c Mr Wai Keong far from v all coz he fall 1st... ^^
After dat v get on banana boat again,n dis time v changed our seat n FALL again...
So fun leh guy... But hor,MR Darren push my head into d sea when v all fall...
I taste dat deeper sea,taste oso more salty... Hehe...

V all saw baby shark ler... but juz 1 n awhile den baby shark missing jor o...
N i remember v went to BLUE SAND...
I saw 2 n i found 1 by my hand... BUt MR WK keep complaint dat's a lie... coz he can't c.. haha...
I remember dat she straight catch d thing when i found... Haha... lastly,missing jor but she happy coz she catch it... ^^

1st night clubbing v juz bout 4-5 ppl drink ny but v oso drank 10 can of carlsberg n half bottle of CHIVAS REGAL... The half dat left v keep 4 next day....
2nd night clubbing,wah!!! totally different wif 1st night...
More ppl den more fun... Sam drink til damn high ler... V drink n dance til 12.30am den club have to close,quite spoilt mood ler... but luckily AZMAN(worker) join us n bring us to laguna's club again... B4 v went thr,Mr SAM Piak wif ppl who sitting next table to us... =.='
He climb up ppl's table n ask ppl CHUI o,but i c he goyang-goyang when standing on table den i ask him come down n i climb up to CHUI... Haha...
After dat,kenvee ask us to wash hair wish bucket of AIS BATU... wah,cold de ler!!!
But nvm,v done it... N Mr SAM put into his pant... =.='
V all boy took off our cloth except MR WK... He pai seh wor... He scare ppl look at his SEXY body wor... HOw force oso useless,kenvee wet his cloth he oso dun1 take off... Sien lo MR WK!!!

After dat,kenvee challenge me say go swim la now,den v both run to d sea n hor lastly KENA CUCUK!!! haha... Worker ask us to come up coz water getting higher n got SHARK!!! WAH,Straight come up... HAHA!!!

After dat v go laguna lo... There is indoor club o... n damn cold la d air cond n almost dismiss all le coz going to close... V all make a circle n den all get to middle to dance... All danced!!! GOod feeling GOod show!!! hehe... MR WK battle wif me o... He dance his Popping n A lil bit of Krumping n i Juz know Shuffle n A lil bit of Break dancing... walao!!!! juz v both battle among 10+ppl thr... So silly la... Haha...But however,i appreciate d battle wif u MR WK!!!

After dat v all get to blue sand again but coz in late night le so watter getting higher dy so hard to find but i'm lucky dat i found 2 again... ^^ Dis time she can't catch it coz juz it juz appear 4 few second n water take it away... T.T

After dat all go back to room n ZzZZz lu... All drank so easy to sleep...

Last day le,checking out at 9.30am den took some pic while waiting fr boat n v leave REDANG lu... Look at Redang,i feel happy but oso some unhappy thing happen too but i dun1 to tak bout dat coz i wan talk bout happy thing!!! Hehe...

After dat wait bus for 8 hours at K.TRG... SOT SOT... den ride bus back to kl lo...
Den go home sleep.. Hehe...

I reli have fun at redang n i believe u all too izit?!
Hope v stil got chance to go other place together again...
If ppl ask whether i wil go redang again den i wil say YES,I WIL...

BYE Redang...TQ

The night b4 i life Kuantan to Redang...

Time reli pass fast..
I admit wif that...
Look at the time *1.16AM*,eye lil heavy,brain lil tired.
But i decide to post a blog b4 i sleep.

Few days at here dy,many thing happen,oso many thing having change.
Happy - unhappy ; unhappy - happy !!!
WOW,changes alots...

Mood down,but heart is high,REDANG,i'm coming to u soon...
I gonna enjoy my trip my life at thr...
Wait 4 me ya....
Coming soon... ^^

I thnk is time to bath den sleep le...
Good night to myself!!!

1.04A.M

Time pass fast,thing happen fast.
Fate come fast,fate gone fast.

Life without me wil better de izit?!
Dun think too much bout me le la.
Take good care of urself o!
V stil friend rite?!

WISH: PPL ALL AROUND ME & ANY1 WHO KNOW ME ALL B HAPPY...

缘分=圆粪？

曾经有几段好的缘分摆在我面前，我没有好好珍惜，然后？就错过啦！！

做了很多不好的事，搞到身边所有人都不开心，全部都很烦恼！

对不起。。。

我想，现在我能说的只是对不起了！

但我知道对不起这三个字没人喜欢也没人想听到的。

对不起就代表做错了事。

我错了，彻彻底底的错了。

让你们所有人伤心了，以后不要也不用再为我流一滴泪了。

不值得，我是衰，也很坏。

你们还有很多时间，你们能够找到更好的。

我不会是个好男人，也不会是个好情人。

这是真的，离开了我我希望你们找到你们的幸福和快乐！

祝福你们。。。

如果在古代，我应该被斩首了吧？！

惭愧的刘淼鑫！！

2008-05-06

1.52a.m.
An hours ago,i juz home from my supper wif my fren.
After bout 20min,i decide i wanna fet on bed n have a nice sleep.
But,unfortunately that i cant asleep,WHY? i think mayb too much thing dat i've to think bout ba!

I'm hearing Apologize at dis moment,i think it's too late to apologize.
Mayb dat's rite,i done too much fault?!
I dunno whether i'm rite or i'm wrong,but now,i've ntg to do n i cant change anything else.

Cus told me dat lastly he noe bout THAT!!!
I've been silent for few sec at d moment he told me,izit he fine?angry?sad?or NVM?
Dis is a good question,rite?!
He told me dat he was open minded n wont angry n sad bout dat...
But,at d moment he told me he dun mind,i got lil nervous + scare.
Izit he hide his feeling & thinking from me?!
But anyway,i believe dat wat u told me is true..RITE?!

Eye is tired,mind is awake...
Body is fine,heart is pain...
Music is d only thing can cool down my confusing heart...
D ppl i need at dis moment is not by my side...
Sleeping?!Runaway from me?!or something else?!
I reli dunno bout dat...
Worry seem useless,wat's useful for me now?!
Some1 sms me call me or find me at dis moment?!
I think u all slept,juz leaving me alone in front of my STUPID laptop dat wil shutdown auto when heat too much high...
I kinna hate u(laptop) but at least at dis moment u'r accompaning me...
TQ... >.< I think i'm crazy coz i talk to myself n say TQ to my laptop... Sweat =.=' Nite is silent but my heart is so noisy,i need to think bout my future,my study,my fren n my love?! I dunno wat's going on d next sec,at least at dis moment i understand who i'm n wat i'm doing.

2day,i noe dat FS is totally sucks!!!
Ppl wil noe every of ur thing even u din write it our or clear...
Mayb dat's d way u inform ppl ba...
All treat i'm d worst 1,by d way,nvm...
Juz get well soon n b fine den ok dy...
Take k...

Dad,mom,i love u...
U both been so suffer to make our life better...
I'm proud wif u my dad...
I feel sad when i looking at u...
U look like 60years old eventhough u'r juz 40+years old...
M i useless?!
I brought u so much worries so much anger so much sadness...
U put ur hope on me,i reli done my best,but i scare i fail n waste ur hope on me...
May i hug u both n cry inside urs hug?
I noe u both dun1 to c ur son like dis,izit?!
But no matter how,thankss 4 giving me a chance to b ur son,i appreciate it!!!
I LOVE U DAD&MOM...
Muakss....

Melsim,enuf le,dun think so much le,time to get on bed.
Dream something happy n wish my dream comes true...Okay?!

Alone at home!!!

D day i stay at Kuantan is boring.
Every afternoon i oso stay at home alone.
Nobody talk to me nobody sms me.
I'm going to crazy wif such life.

Usually i oso wil sign in my MSN to find some1 to chat,dis may at least decrease my bored & oso waste my time.But dunno wat the fuck happen wif MSN,i think server down so that i've nothing to do anymore.

Blogging seem is d last thing dat i can do,so i add a new post here.

5 more days i'm going to Redang wif my fren.
I've been thought for many times,izit d trip can bring us happiness?!
I reli dunno wat wil happen at Redang,happy?!sad?!enjoy?!
Full of question mark in my brain by d way!!!
Dis make me feel annoying.

I reli hope i can get a happy trip wif u all to Redang.
When i'm lonely,i'm quiet,god damn it,question question question appear in my brain.
I'm missing d moment when v sing k 2gether.
How happy how fun is dat.
But now?!
When is d next chance/time v all can gather n sing k again?!

Help me pls!!!
Fullfil me wif fun n bring me to anywhere dat have a lots of fun.

Boring to DEATH!!!

I stay at home since morning til now,never step out my home...
N i found dat i'm going to crazy coz reli reli bored...

I miss u so much!!!
Whenever i wanna find u,u never bother me...
Quite sad wif dat u noe??!!
Wat r u actually doing?
I reli wanna know,call or my msg u never answer n reply!!!
Miss u wif sad...

How my friends at KL?!
I know dat 2nite u all are going to BAR CELONA...
I wanna join but...
Haiz...

Somebody talk to me?!
Any1 here?!

Kuantan --->> life when i 'm not at KL!!!

Erm...
I think i dy back here for 3days from KL --->> Kuantan...
When d 1st nite i back here i got a little bit lazy to hang out,but lastly at nite i'm not lazy dy,i went to drink until bout 12something coz kinda boring lo...
Last nite,d same thing happened!!!Drunk again!!!! =.="
N no matter how i surprised that i drunk wif Kevin o!!!

So,Friends,no matter wat happened b4,i think dat friends stil friends...
Hope every of my friends keep dis relation wif me until d days v stop our life!!!!

CGD(D2)

Certificate in Graphic Design is d course...

D2 is d group...



So fast,1year past...

Things happened in dis whole year not less n oso not many...

But everything happened is meaningful...

Full of sad,angry...But most important is a lots of happy...



1st sem,something happen between me n my hometown fren plus housemate plus roommate...KEVIN NG...



2nd sem,something happend between me n whole D2...I think i get boycott by all of them...All of them sitting in a roll,n i sitting at other side alone... T.T

Blind oso noe wat's happening izit?!

No matter how,everything bcome fine at last...



3rd sem,d hardest sem...Not hard on subject dat study,but relation...

Most sad thing happens in dis 3rd sem...

I done something dat sorry to some1...(i think u all noe who i m talking bout)

Sorry is d hardest word n oso d most hurt word...

Somemore coming from me to him...I felt guilty n sorry to him...

All noe wat happened dy ba!!!

But wat i wan to say is,THANKSSS...

Thankss u all stil treating me as fren as bro as a member...

I'm touch wif dat...I noe dat fren is not easy to make,somemore v all bro...IZIT?!

Fren is not easy to make,d person who v likes n love oso not easy to find!!!

SO,i choose both...May bit greedy but at least dis decison bring v all a happy ending... ^^



N, i'm sorry to hear dat my fren's closest had past away...

Dun worry bout dat,ur closest is going to a better place only...

He stil caring u like v all caring u too...

Cheer up BRO...

As u said,succesful is d way u thx to ur closest...

On d way to succeed,u got v all BRO walk 2gether wif u...

I'm melsim from CGD (D2)
Forever I'M...
Miss u guys n take k!!!