2008-05-06

1.52a.m.
An hours ago,i juz home from my supper wif my fren.
After bout 20min,i decide i wanna fet on bed n have a nice sleep.
But,unfortunately that i cant asleep,WHY? i think mayb too much thing dat i've to think bout ba!

I'm hearing Apologize at dis moment,i think it's too late to apologize.
Mayb dat's rite,i done too much fault?!
I dunno whether i'm rite or i'm wrong,but now,i've ntg to do n i cant change anything else.

Cus told me dat lastly he noe bout THAT!!!
I've been silent for few sec at d moment he told me,izit he fine?angry?sad?or NVM?
Dis is a good question,rite?!
He told me dat he was open minded n wont angry n sad bout dat...
But,at d moment he told me he dun mind,i got lil nervous + scare.
Izit he hide his feeling & thinking from me?!
But anyway,i believe dat wat u told me is true..RITE?!

Eye is tired,mind is awake...
Body is fine,heart is pain...
Music is d only thing can cool down my confusing heart...
D ppl i need at dis moment is not by my side...
Sleeping?!Runaway from me?!or something else?!
I reli dunno bout dat...
Worry seem useless,wat's useful for me now?!
Some1 sms me call me or find me at dis moment?!
I think u all slept,juz leaving me alone in front of my STUPID laptop dat wil shutdown auto when heat too much high...
I kinna hate u(laptop) but at least at dis moment u'r accompaning me...
TQ... >.< I think i'm crazy coz i talk to myself n say TQ to my laptop... Sweat =.=' Nite is silent but my heart is so noisy,i need to think bout my future,my study,my fren n my love?! I dunno wat's going on d next sec,at least at dis moment i understand who i'm n wat i'm doing.

2day,i noe dat FS is totally sucks!!!
Ppl wil noe every of ur thing even u din write it our or clear...
Mayb dat's d way u inform ppl ba...
All treat i'm d worst 1,by d way,nvm...
Juz get well soon n b fine den ok dy...
Take k...

Dad,mom,i love u...
U both been so suffer to make our life better...
I'm proud wif u my dad...
I feel sad when i looking at u...
U look like 60years old eventhough u'r juz 40+years old...
M i useless?!
I brought u so much worries so much anger so much sadness...
U put ur hope on me,i reli done my best,but i scare i fail n waste ur hope on me...
May i hug u both n cry inside urs hug?
I noe u both dun1 to c ur son like dis,izit?!
But no matter how,thankss 4 giving me a chance to b ur son,i appreciate it!!!
I LOVE U DAD&MOM...
Muakss....

Melsim,enuf le,dun think so much le,time to get on bed.
Dream something happy n wish my dream comes true...Okay?!